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I'm sure you've heard that we're all supposed to have our own paths in life, right?

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And I believe that's true.

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I believe that it's up to each of us to figure that out.

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But that doesn't mean that we can't learn from each other and share with each other and help each other.

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Not just with, um, it's not so much about, okay, let me put it to you this way.

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I've been paying attention to life for a very long time and trying to understand myself and everything on this journey.

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And I've come to a point where I believe I found an awful lot of understanding and healing that works for me in my path.

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And I want to share that with you.

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For a few reasons.

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And it's not really about me.

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I don't really need to share anything with anybody to be cool because I'm doing pretty good, I think.

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I'm extremely happy and peaceful with where I've come to in life,

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considering that I've had, I don't know, an inordinate amount of trauma in my life.

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Maybe, maybe not. It's comparison games. I'm not into comparison games, and that's not the point here.

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So I want to share some things with you.

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I've been paying a lot of attention and I'm also different.

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Very different.

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I've come to realize that.

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I've come to embrace that.

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It's okay.

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It doesn't make me better or worse, but different is different.

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And if you're trying to get a handle on how to really understand and cope with the world and yourself and all your relations in it,

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it helps to take other perspectives and stand them up next to your own so that you can look at them

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and compare and see, you know, what the differences are and find what pieces might make sense and fit

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for you. That's what I'm offering you. Okay. So I have been always open to perspectives my whole

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life, very open to reexamining my own perspectives. And I'm, I'm not in anything to be right. I'm in

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to learn what the real truth is, you know?

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Very curious, very seeking kind of mind.

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Also very feeling heart, you know?

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It's one of them that, like, it takes a lot of work

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not to have it on your sleeve, but that's okay.

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I'm not unique in any one special way.

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There are people out there who have whatever different traits I have

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in some different mix, but I've found in life that I perplex everybody,

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that I don't fit into anybody's molds.

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I can't even give you a label for me because I've been trying to figure that out for a long time.

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You want to know what I am?

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I'm a puzzle wrapped in an enigma and hid behind a paradox.

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But I've come to understand some things about how my puzzle pieces fit and why it's an enigma and how paradox is truth.

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Anyway, I can and probably will get very deep in some corners here.

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But I have a lot of perspectives to offer about regulating how you feel about what you see in life.

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Part of that is regulating your mental and emotional diet.

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That's important.

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What I'm going to do is I'm going to share a lot of tools that have helped me in profound ways.

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And I'm going to do something for you that helped me.

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when other people try to explain concepts and ideas they really hit home for me the best when

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they relate something about how it works in their personal life and sometimes the presenter is

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apologetic about it like people i'm telling you what like i appreciate it when people do that i'm

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not offended or bothered i'm like that's how you make it the most real you're telling me how it's

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real for you and so that helps me understand what parts might or might not be real for me

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And life is complicated. There's a lot of people who are offering you their version of a manual for life. But like, you know, it's still something to navigate without good perspectives.

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and an ability to be adaptable in your perspectives

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and understand how much power and how much agency you really have in your life.

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People talk about the matrix.

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Okay, that's a great analogy.

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But, you know, your real life lived experience is what's in front of you.

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It's what you feel.

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It's what you see, touch, taste, smell, and are experiencing.

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So what we're trying to do is learn how to navigate your experience through life and

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Maybe even find

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Not just peace or acceptance but like a little bit of joy and happiness along the way, you know

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Those are nice too and there just as much of that available to you as there is all of the pain I have learned to hold certain perspectives about my own journey and my own pain that I been through

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And I find lessons everywhere.

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I've learned that my pain, even if not especially my undeserved pain, is a teacher for me.

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It is.

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and I'd rather share with you what I've learned from my experiences

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than for you to have to go through them.

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You know, you can learn vicariously through me.

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That would be awesome because, you know,

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I'm grateful for everything that brought me to be who and what I am today.

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I am.

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But that doesn't mean I want to relive any of it.

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And I don't really, you know, this isn't about,

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this is about me in the sense of being authentic and open and vulnerable and putting myself out

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there to share myself but it's not about the feedback I get it's just about overcoming that

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I guess you could say core wound that many of us share about being seen right but I think I'm

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pretty good I don't you don't have to love me hate me like me dislike me be ambivalent it

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doesn't matter in the long run. You know, there's, there's ones of you, tens of you,

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hundreds of you, thousands of you, millions of you can't please everybody. Why try? That's not

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the point. But the point is, um, I find myself blessed. You could say cursed too, but I've

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learned to see that, um, everything is a blessing if you look at it right. But I find myself very

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blessed with the gift of being able to see things differently somehow than most people.

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I don't know.

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My brain works different.

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And it's not just like some simple thing like, oh, I have ADHD, which that's a label.

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And that was very useful.

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We'll talk more about what the label did and didn't do for me in my life and my understanding

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of myself and my self-acceptance.

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but I have a lot of things to talk about.

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There's many things that are passionate about.

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So I'm going to talk about how to regulate your emotions

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and your mental state when navigating life.

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Part of it is becoming aware of what you are consuming

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because it has an outsized effect.

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If you understand a little bit about the architecture of your mind

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and how you process all the information that comes in from reality,

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you can learn that there are systems there that mitigate the flood of information in your brain that you can work with because they will work with you or against you.

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And if you're not conscious and aware of how the way you apply your attention matters profoundly to what you're going to experience in life, you know, you don't have to believe me.

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You know, this isn't about, you know, me convincing you that, like, I'm great in any way.

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You might not like me, but you might find one thing that was an interesting thing that, like, unlocked something for you in your life.

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Then I'm super happy for that, you know.

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Take it, run with it.

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It's sort of like, if you feel like you've been blessed with something, you know, whether it's, it doesn't matter what it is.

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I do musical stuff and I have a pretty strong intellect and I'm able to hold a lot of abstract concepts.

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I've practiced a lot of skills with root cause troubleshooting in highly technical domains for most of my life.

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And I've picked up a lot of skills and stuff that are applicable across many domains.

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And I'm not better than anybody, trust me.

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Like, you know, if I think I'm such a fart smeller, I mean, smart feller, then I was born into a family where they're all, you know, that way.

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And so I have a very different perspective on whether intelligence makes you good, bad or whatever.

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It's just a thing, a feature.

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And, you know, it can help you.

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It can also make it difficult to understand or relate to other people because I see things differently than most people in my family.

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And I'm like, you know, if you like numbers a lot, like my IQ is somewhere in the middle of my siblings.

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But I realize I don't think like anybody.

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And maybe it's just because of the unique circumstances of my life or I don't know.

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I don't know what it is, but I'm not ungrateful for it.

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And part of that is that I have some kind of knack of seeing potential and possibility in everything.

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Like, for real.

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And I also have, like, some permanently switched on, like it's fused on.

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There an optimism or some kind of hopeful light inside of me that just you know I so grateful it there Because it been all I had to hold on to in some dark times you know in back in my past And your past is an interesting thing because even if you kind of forget about it or think it in the past and you moved on it not

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It's in you. It's still there waiting for you to really look at certain things so that you can because you can heal those things.

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It's possible, you know, and there's all kinds of tools and ways and whatnot.

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But like anything in life, whether it's understanding or acceptance or healing, whatever it is, you have to want it to make it happen.

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You know, no, because there's only one constant in life.

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It's change.

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And so if you're unwilling to change and move along with life, you're going to find struggle.

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So changing yourself can be scary.

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Changing your perspective can be scary for many different reasons.

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Psychology is crazy.

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Put that on a t-shirt.

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Anyway, this is a little promo just to give you an idea.

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I'm starting a podcast.

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It's called the Love Down Babylon podcast.

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and I'm going to relate a lot of things about my journey and my understandings

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and how I've applied these things in my life, you know, where the rubber meets the road

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so that I don't just say, hey, be the change you want to see in the world.

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I want to show you like how I'm trying to make that happen for me

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and where I'm finding in myself the clues to where the changes need to happen, you know.

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and it also, you know, the things in you that make you passionate or the thing, you know,

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in any direction, you know, like you want to protect something, you want to cherish something

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or you just find joy in it or whatever. Those are big clues to where you might find something

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akin to purpose in life. And for me, sharing has been, um, both a blessing and a curse.

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You could say I've overshared a lot in life and that's okay. You know, it gives you a lot of

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practice for this kind of vulnerability it does however i'm not over sharing because i need anybody

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to feel any kind of way about me you shouldn't need anybody to feel any kind of way about you

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the real trick in life is to have an honest an honest relationship with yourself because through

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self-honesty and understanding you're going to find peace within yourself and a lot of us

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have a lot of reasons to think that's not possible or hard or, you know, um, so I'm not

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going to just give you like, um, you have to do this and you have to do that and on and

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on and on and on.

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It's like, no, I'm just going to share because one thing I've been open to my whole life

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is alternative perspectives.

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And my problem solving skill sets have included taking your assumptions and examining them,

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you know, uh, and turning things on their head and looking things, uh, looking at things backwards,

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you know, um, rather than trying to figure out how to get from where you're at to where you're

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going, you go to, well, where am I trying to go? And what are the things necessary, you know,

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to bring where I am to this place? You can look at problems from different ways like that. Um,

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anyway, I don't want to make this too long and put everything in here, but I also want to mention

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that I have a lot of strong opinions and views, passion, I guess you could say about certain

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things in technology, but where it relates to the human. Okay. I like decentralized systems. I like

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sovereign technology. I like systems where people can play on an equal playing field, things that

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create digital commons. And I'm aware, being a very techie kind of person, of, you know, developments

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out there in those directions that could use attention and support, because they solve a lot

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of problems that both people creating content and consuming content want. And they don't necessarily

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leave out in the cold, you know, the old players in the old monetary systems, but there are

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other ways monetarily and with distribution and all of that that are worth looking at because

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It's up to us to build and nourish a healthy digital commons in order for us to have a healthy commons for us all to play in together that isn't under somebody's big tent.

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You know, these platforms, they offer a lot.

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I'm not saying that there's not value in them, but they come with a cost and the cost is control.

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And it can get pretty hardcore sometimes and it can be pretty.

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And, you know, and the incentive systems that are set up in there make it just very light.

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There not a lot of incentive to spend the money that it would cost to put resources into negotiating every copyright claim you know So they just kind of err on the side of caution by default

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And it's difficult on a platform like YouTube to deal with those things.

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As an example, self-censorship is rampant.

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You know, advertisers fund everything.

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So advertisers are the ultimate, you know, are the ultimate.

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What they want is what matters the most.

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And what advertisers want is everything to be PC and acceptable because they're selling images for brands and trying to, you know, trying to get people to buy products and invest in brands and all of that kind of stuff.

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Or there's other things besides just selling, you know, advertising for all kinds of stuff.

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It's like the incentives follow from where the power follows, which is usually the monetary structures.

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And monetary structures aren't just the money.

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It's also, you might have a garden, but it's the walls around the garden that can control the flow of information, exchange, and money, you know?

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And I'm not hating on anyone or anything that exists, but we're getting to a point where, you know, do you remember MySpace pages?

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Yeah, and now you had to do it all again on Facebook, and you couldn't just transfer your stuff over or, you know.

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I mean, there's so much of a pull to platforms and stuff, but we're at the point where there's been a lot of solutions out there for how to deal with solving the problems that the platforms originally solved through centralization.

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And I will talk with you about that.

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So there's a lot to offer, not just on the healing journey or what you might call the spiritual journey.

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existential questions have been a big thing for myself and a lot all my life I really want to know

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what is this you know I also really needed to understand my pain and so eventually it was

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it was the pain and it wasn't that any of the things that I experienced were so acute

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in the last go-round it was just the final straws on the camel's back as it were on top of

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the mountainous weight of everything that came before it that made me just be like,

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look, I need to solve a different problem in life.

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I need to really focus on solving the problem of me

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because I'm the one constant in my life, and I'm the one experiencing my life,

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and I'm the one living here inside my body with my feelings,

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so how do I really start to understand that in a way that works for me?

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And so I ply myself, you know, I can be very tenacious, especially like when something really matters to me.

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And so I wanted it bad enough and I had been working the problems all my life.

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So it wasn't like I haven't had a lot of a lot of pieces already to work with.

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But to really, really dig down that extra level, it came down to where, like, that's all that mattered to me.

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I'm like, I've tried everything and I think I understand, you know, but it's still not working for, um, for this, for my heart. It wasn't working for my heart. I think, I think my heart's going to be okay. I do.

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and I see, I don't just see the possibility and the potentials in everyone, everything,

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and the world, but I also see the problems, and I see, you know, I see solutions, but not like this

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is the answer. I see routes and paths to get to solutions that could be applicable for each of us,

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but I also see common threads.

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And so I have a lot of commentary and things to share about the world.

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Also, we'll learn a little bit about propaganda and persuasion

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and perception and reality and the mind and your emotions and your mind.

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Here's a little tip.

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You can't really think yourself through emotional issues or missional problems,

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emotional, you know, all these words are so loaded.

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You cannot think yourself through an emotional situation.

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You have to learn how to feel yourself through it.

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But mental frameworks can be enormously helpful in getting there

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and understanding why you need to do what you do

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and what it's supposed to do for you

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so that you, like, actually endeavor to try, I guess.

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I don't know.

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You know, we all got our own walk.

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I don't want you to follow me.

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I'm not following anybody else.

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I take it all in. I do. I do.

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I take it all in and I have for a very long time.

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I see so many similarities between all of the the religious and spiritual

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and even scientific ways of looking at the world.

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I do psychology and spirituality and religion are all really trying

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to approach some of the same problems.

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And I'm familiar with the concept of a black box problem. You can't see what's going on inside of a black box.

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So you have to look at what goes in for inputs and what comes out for outputs of this black box.

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And then you can infer what might be working inside.

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And then you can create a model through that inference.

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And then you can test how the inputs and the outputs match up to your predictions based on your model.

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This is the scientific process, is it not?

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So anyway, ways to cut and dice problems.

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It's one of my talents.

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It is.

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So I might as well share some of it,

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because it doesn't have to just be applied

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to troubleshooting complex,

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very complex technical systems.

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I worked a job early on in my career at a company.

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They're called Bridge Information Systems.

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Did I ever say the perfection is the enemy of the good?

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This is good enough even with road traffic

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Anyway, I worked at this company

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They did real-time stock market data

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Trading data correlated with news article information

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And they were taking in direct feeds from commodity exchanges

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And brokerage houses, everything

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And they were taking all this information into redundant data center systems

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In St. Louis and Union City, Missouri

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and feeding all this information back out over a global network.

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It was a lot of technology, and it was so exciting for me.

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But there were such an incredible amount of moving pieces

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to collect organize correlate and then direct all of this information to trading desks out on trading floors for you know all these exchanges and stuff

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And when I worked at this place, I wanted to know how it all worked.

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So, you know, here I am, Greenhorn, you know, help desk guy or whatever in their little,

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you know, on a little organization that had like eight of us to begin with there.

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and I wanted to know everything about how it worked

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because I was fascinated and impressed with the technology

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and they had pieces in there that had been developed in the 70s

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hardware-wise, you know, for like, they had some custom networking

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so it was cool.

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And they had like old mini computer systems and mainframe systems involved

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and I don't know if they had a mainframe involved

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but they had like AS400s and, you know,

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and then at the time like deck alpha chips.

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I'm getting into the weeds here.

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I'm a tech nerd, among other things.

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music world

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and I've explored a lot of

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counterculture world

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existed in the dress up suit and tie world

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just fine too, it's alright

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I've tried

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a lot of different paths in life and I've

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generally kept my feet

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in each of two different

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worlds everywhere and in every

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incarnation that I've been

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so many many

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roads, many stories to share, I guess, many perspectives to share. And this is just, this

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is just, um, for me, it overcomes just the vulnerability of just being me in, in this

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kind of a context Um maybe that helps you I learned that people are afraid to do things until they see other people do them And so if just putting myself out here in this way helps you open up to putting yourself out there and being more confident in doing that then you welcome

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And I'm so glad if I'm a blessing to you in that way.

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I am. I am grateful.

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And if my perspectives help you in some way, cool.

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It's all a gift. I'm just offering myself as a gift to you.

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speaking of monetization

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I'm not looking for sponsors

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I'm not looking for subscriptions

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you know necessarily

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I'm not opposed to people wanting to give me money

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every month but you don't

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I'm not asking

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I'm not insisting on anything

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but value for value is an important concept

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that this is going to be

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touching on and we'll talk more about that

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but value for value is basically

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like if you're receiving value

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just reciprocate

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there's ways

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we'll talk more about that

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That's part of the technology and platform discussion and distribution.

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You know, there's new things.

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They need light shed on them so that they can be watered, nurtured, and grow.

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And if I can help you understand what's in it for you technologically,

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you might want to help make those things happen and even participate in how they get shaped.

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There's functional stuff out there.

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But, you know, anyway, we've got to build it for them to come.

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Well, if it's a place we want to go, you know, we can, I can, I can point you in the direction of like some talented people who can make these things happen and know what they're doing, but they could use a little guidance in what you actually want from it.

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And, uh, and what matters to you, everybody's a stakeholder in a commons.

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So bringing people together for a discussion around that is, that's important to me.

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I feel that that serves the things that not only light me up but that are serving me in how I putting myself out here I using Podcasting 2 features in my releases here

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and distributing through that kind of an ecosystem.

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This isn't just a YouTube or an Instagram thing.

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It's not.

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Although I release stuff there.

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And it's also not like...

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I mean, it'd be cool to get supported, I guess.

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because I have a very modest lifestyle.

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For somebody who is capable of making, you know,

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well over 100K with the skills I have,

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I just have such a weird relationship with money.

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I disliked it for a while because I see the toxic parts of it,

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how it distorts things.

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And I also deeply understand how it's not as real as people think it is.

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It just represents something else.

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and understanding the things that it actually represents

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makes you understand that it's just a tool to get there,

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but it's not the only way.

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Abundance is everywhere.

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Value is so much more than a dollar amount.

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It is, and it changes.

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See, I just want to share, share, share, talk, talk, talk.

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Go, go, go, and it's okay, but maybe I should go, go, go,

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and just say, you know, eh.

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Feel however you want about it. It's okay.

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I love you.

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I hope you get something good out of the things I have to offer you.

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And maybe we'll see more of each other.

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Okay. Have a great day.

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And thank you. Thank you.

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And I mean it. Thank you.

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Because your time is so precious.

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Maybe more than you realize.

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Maybe so much more than you realize.

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So thank you for your precious time.

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And you have a beautiful day.